My Story

It all happened within a few hours at travel night.Two of my #family members are heading to #Syria, and as I am always busy with #study affairs in Qatar, I didn't think about #traveling. However, a few months ago I had the feeling of missing home and family, but I could not go. Suddenly, I found myself crying with no reason. I did not even ask to travel, but it seemed I had to do so. Syria and me, we have a long story together; a tale of happiness and sadness. Everyone likes to visit their #home, but at some point, when you face a hard time and #difficult #challenges, lost a home, you feel that you are shattered. I tried to #ignore the present and focus on my future despite my #hardship with my #country. In 2011, I #left my home when my #graduation was knocking the #door. It was the #hardest #challenge I have ever faced. Then another #book of my life was written through my #decision to #start my study at #QU, which I #adore. #Hopefully, 2011-2018 were #hectic but fruitful as I get two #bachelors instead of one: Economics, Banking and Insurance and Mass communication, Broadcast journalism and English Linguistics and Literature. Alhamdulillah. It takes a lot of #time to #understand Allah's #unique story for me. If you asked me before about my #ability to get this, I would not #believe it. #doha

I ran to #meet with my #family in Syria after I left in 2011, I came back three times with a mission to complete my #graduation year and with no home, but a family #shelter. It was the hardest time, but God help me to #finish successfully. After that, I hate my home country; it was always a #reminder of sad feeling. I have suffered to forget and #overcome things I have been through. I missed my home my #books my tiny #details that I built them for 18 years. And at some point, #everything vanished, and my #timeline sets over again to #zero. I missed my grandma, uncles, aunts and friends at the same age. When I came to #Qatar, I was like a plant without #roots. I want to adapt very #fast. I want to accept my #fate and create a #life. And what does presence mean? Isn't about people you talk and deal with? Yes, of course. I came to Qatar and QU was my shelter. I love QU, and I call it my #home. I even go there whenever I miss my home. It #embraced me and allowed me to #start from the beginning after my transfer app rejected. I met with amazing #friends, and they were so few. Those who #understand that you are under #shock and emotionally #broken. I had a difficulty to #express #myself. Should I tell them the real story, my age and whatever? When I did explain, I lost them. Not all people would consider you and deal gently with your circumstances. Thus, I decided to keep silent and pass calmly with my youthful look, which doesn't reflect my real age. It was okay to some extent, but the truth that it was wrong. I can't judge myself now, but I can say that it was the healthiest choice for my mental health at that time.

2011 left Syria and home

2012 2 months

2013 two weeks

2014 one month

2015 5 months

2016 two weeks

2017 5 days

2018 one week

2019 5 days so far

Most of the residency was in my grandparents' home and hotels

Last part: I believe that there is no good or bad life, but there is a will that keeps us on the right track. Our present and #future cannot be well constructed without #challenging past. The best thing is to use our history to learn from it analyze it and build a better understanding of life meaning, and the worst thing is when you allow your past to occupy every life minute and #hold you back from attaining your #dream. Here is my trial to face my fear and start a new page. Here is an end of unpleasant memories. This story reflects on my academic #journey, my age and future. Overall, I am more than #blessed with things I have. I am even pampered when I barely can #compare myself to #people who #sacrifice their lives in the #Mediterranean Sea to find a shelter. #War is #horrible, but we can cope with it. Today I did not want to run from my past or forget it because this is not doable, but I want to face it, accept it and learn from it. Always #remember things you have and count your blessings before you blame your fate and remember that life is full of #challenges but also full of #choices. This is my #story and I believe that everyone has a unique story to be told. The thing is to not build #borders and isolate yourself, but be #brave, #honest and #proud of who you are once you are doing your best. However, there was an advantage during that time. It gave me a real sense of Palestinians'' suffering over the years. Do wars make us feel the same, understand each other, closer and break the stupid #nationalism, colonialism product. I am sure that everything happens for a #reason and we should bear that #bleeding as much as we can till we be on the same one #heart, united and strong. These 3 parts' story, 1000 words, is an outcome of my 5 days' trip. Whenever I had #time, I wrote part of it till I was surprised by its size. I am #happy that I wrote it and liberated myself, finally. #Writing has a #magic remedy to #souls so use it and liberate yourself as well. Many thanks for people who go through my 3 posts. Thanks for your support and kind words. It meant it to be one post but the word limit did not allow. Salam ♥ peace

Soon I will reserve a Hall so if you are interested in watching the film we can meet and have fun. This will be after the Ajyal film festival as the film will be participated in the ajyal competition so shouldn't be shared publicly.

Always try to be optimistic and enjoy what you have and be thankful. And as prophet Mohammed peace be upon him said Be optimistic, and you will get what you want. Also, Steve Hopkins said adaptation is an intelligence. Of course, it is not easy but the more you charge your faith, the more you become skilled over time.